Ok, it was my first time playing that game, and it was EXTREME.
Here are the reasons why it was extreme:
* It was raining the whole day, and still was raining during the game
* At the second game, the sprinklers were on.. everywhere on the field.
* The condition of the field was bad… paddles everywhere.
* It was super dark.. and most of us were wearing black.
It was sooo fun! I was running on bare foot and all, but it was soo
awesome playing.. haha being sneaky was fun.. Solid Snake status!!!
“huh? who’s there!”
During the play, there was one thing that I realized. That place was
where I used to pray alone. When you go out there, it is actually not
dark. The stars are falling down on you and you just feel like to talk
to God. That’s where I prayed.. no, I literally had a conversation with
God. Because of that the night field is my favorite place of the
campus.. haha but it was interesting how I was with other people today…
really joyful.. when I was usually alone there. When I realized it, i
had to raise my hand and praise God. I don’t really know why, but I was
so happy this was happening.
It was a truly blessing day. I really do praise God for this..
Today was the last free week for Mariposa small group '09.
Thankfully,
we were able to combine with Tim and Jessica's group once more. It
makes it the last combined small group as well..What a meaningful day.
After
a discussion with Elaine, and with Vanessa's help, we decided to go to
Paul's restaurent in Merced. I personally liked the choice. In many
aspects, it was a nice choice.
I guess it was a
typical meal.. typical hanging out time. Just another day. However,
there was something very different in me; I found myself praying for
them.
I am a very self-centered guy. I think about myself too
much so that I don't really think about others. Well, I do. I care
about them so much.. But I get occupied by myself a lot. But today, I
was thinking about them.. and I could pray for them, not for myself.
It
is a truel blessing for me to realize I am in love with someone.
Throughout the year as a small group leader, there were many moments
that I was so bumbed, and just give up. There were many moments when I
got hurted by someone, and I hurted the other.. I really really wanted
to cry. I use to wish that I could just take someone else's pain into
myself. I thought if I could see others happy I will be ok. But no...
It was really hard to just take care of my own pains. I couldn't stand
by someone else having their pains.. I guess as a small group leader, I
was responsible to stand by them and all those stuff. I felt like I
couldn't do so.. I felt sorry for them. I know people might think what
the heck are you talking about. However, I really do. I felt like I
could stand by them and support them.. but I just let them be. I was
just so full of myself. Not that I am proud(although I am) or
anything.. but as I said, I was occupied by myself. Haha yeah.. but now
I find myself praying for them. I find myself sincerely supporting
them.. trusting them. What a blessing moment.
Yeah. I
feel like I am gonna miss being a small group leader a lot. I am gonna
miss out a lot. But the memory that I recieved from this year is quite
precious. In a way, I don't think I will regrate not being a leader
because this year was so happy.
Dear Marposa, let's have our last 3 weeks even happier.
The third Jr. bonding today, also it was the Good Friday..it was meant to be.
I loved how our focus today was not only about building each other
up and supporting each other, but actually to have ourselves to go out
for the broken and outcasted.. We are gonna be seniors soon.. and we
have the responsibilities to set the bar and lead the underclassments..
Yeah.. in that sense it was so meaningful to hear all those. We can do
this.. we can make changes.. not just a change, but progress..
I also had a good conversation with Vanessa and Jeff. It was
somewhat heavy, but I was definitely happy about it. I think I learned
something from it.. at least I felt like a burden was lifted from me a
little. Yeah.. I wanted to hear what I needed to hear. What a
blessing.. what a blessing.. for me, and for others..
